A mother's cry is unheard amidst her infant's wail. Her laughter often subtle amidst her toddler's chuckle. Her voice is most beautiful when she sings, soothes and shares... even in silence.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Thank You
Well, if only things always go as planned. The girls adapted well in school. But they caught a cold on Christmas night and started developing fever, runny nose, cough and God knows what else. So we had them quarantined at home from then. Meaning, Di and I had been caring for them 24/7 for the past 7 days. Tiring? That’s an understatement!
I could tell Di was on the verge of breaking down last night when En refused her medication. The poor gal had been on it for days and finally threw in the towel. We battled with her for nearly an hour before she succumbs to our “evil plot”. Physically exhausted and mentally drained, both of us were speechless after that. We just didn't have the energy to even sigh…
Its New Year Eve and we had nothing planned. For the past years, Di and I would look forward to fireworks display from our full view windows as well as ships/ocean liners berthing nearby. Tonight, we were just looking forward to bed time. Can you beat that? Hee...
Nevertheless, I'd like to take this opportunity to express my heartfelt thanks to all who had been very supportive over the past one year. Apart from God (the reason I live and survived to date), from the bottom of my heart, I want to thank Di for being supportive of whatever decision I made despite our differences. My very special thanks to my dad who never fail to turn up at my doorstep (rain or shine) whenever help was needed at my place. Not forgetting my 3 gorgeous sisters who were always ready to lend a helping hand. Last but not least, my in-laws, godparents-in-laws, Ling, Ya-Ya and many others who mean so much to me, thank you! Thank you very much indeed!
And to my dearest little dinosaurettes – Thank You too. You may be rascals, but you are MINE. I love you both. *Muaks*
Monday, December 22, 2008
Playgroup Updates
3rd day (Wednesday)
En & Xuan managed to stretch their stay in PG beyond lunch hours. They had their shower (as they did on the 1st & 2nd day) and surprisingly took their 2 hour nap in school for the first time. Gong Gong and I pick them up at 3pm. Xuan was all teary when she saw us but En walked out happily, struggling to carry her little load of personal loot.
4th day (Thursday)
Both girls cried for a minutes at the door. Teachers had to carry them in. But it was obvious by now they do not detest school. They were simply more interested in the amenities which were leading to their school, and found it hard to accept the fact we are not going to these amenities. I guess the morning struggle will have to go on for quite a while since there is no alternative route to their "campus". At pickup time, Xuan ran to the door but no tears this time. En was nowhere in sight and we had to wait for quite a while. It turned out our little friend was taking her own sweet time munching her tea time snack. :)
5th day (Friday)
The usual 1-minute drama took place at the door again. Peace returned the moment they were distracted by some toys and their new friends. We could hear kids cheering for them and calling their names. Peeping through the windows, we saw older kids from Nursery sharing toys with them. Such angels! As Fridays are exclusively set aside for Gong-Gong, we went to pick them up at 3pm again. One of the girls in Nursery had just celebrated her birthday with a large cake, so we had to wait for 30 minutes, so the girls could slowly savour their share of the yummy dessert. Both came to the gate smiling today.
We were all hoping things would continue to be this smooth in the weeks to come, especially since Ya-Ya had left us on Saturday night. The girls had also made new friends in school, particularly Ran and Kel. I bet I'll hear a lot about these kids in future.
P/S: This morning (6th day), both girls cried before reaching school because Di and I refuse to bring them to the nearby playground. At the gate, both were still crying. However, En walked in without kicking a fuss while Xuan reached out voluntarily to her teacher to be carried. *Phew* Can't help but thank God for answered prayers!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Separation Anxiety
Gong-Gong (my dad) is probably suffering from the same "disease" as me. I suspect so because he kept “appearing” at our home the past 2 weeks, taking a share of the quality time which I’m trying my best to spend with the kids. Anyway, to keep Gong-Gong occupied, I have already made arrangements with the Playgroup staff to release the munchkins 2 hours earlier every Friday. That would be Gong-Gong’s weekly playdate with them.
On the other hand, I’m also kind of relieved that the girls are settling down pretty well in school. En, in particular, adapted so well, she took all of us by surprise. She cried for a mere 30 seconds then proceeded to play with toys on her first day. She was also seen holding the hands of a teacher whom she wasn’t introduced to previously. Still waters run deep indeed!!!
Xuan, on the other hand, wailed so loudly for nearly an hour. I pitied the staff but it was really out of my hands. Di, Ya Ya and I were watching them from outside the school because we agreed not to accompany the munchkins right from the start, so they could adapt faster. This is truly a matter of "letting go and letting God"!
Then we saw a huge improvement in Xuan on the second day because she only wailed for a good 7 minutes, and she performed even better today – 3 minutes. My guess is she will continue to throw a tantrum every morning but the duration will get shorter each day. Hopefully the wailing will stop by the end of the second week.
Alright, that's all for updates for now. Gotta go… Time to find some errands to keep myself occupied before the thought of the munchkins fill my mind again. Ciao!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Bitten
When Ya Ya was done cooking dinner, she shouted for the munchkins to go home for their meals. As usual, Xuan was having so much fun, she refused. Out of desperation after a few failed attempts to “lure” her home, I told her we’re going to the playground. She ran to me enthusiastically right away.
However, the scene turned ugly when I brought her back to our home for dinner instead. Despite constant assurance that we’ll go to the playground after her meal, the playful girl refuse to have her meal. In the face of a meltdown, I had to give the hysterical toddler a time-out which further upsets her. While I was trying to comfort her, Xuan “loses” her mind and sank her teeth (all 18 of them!) right into my shoulders!!! It’s the first time I suffered a bite since her infant days when she was teething. And mind you, she had only gums those days and it already hurt. Can you imagine her full set of teeth sinking into the meaty part of my shoulder? I thank God I was not wearing sleeveless top that day or I’ll be left with a nasty scar.
Well, she did apologised immediately when I pushed her away from me and yell (yes, I yelled because I was hurt and in pain) at her for the ungrateful act. At the same time, I also felt extremely apologetic myself for lying to her. Lesson to be learned? Never lie to your kids, no matter what.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Growth
Before, their languages were limited to a single syllables, and very narrow range of words. Then they start to blurt out words we used on a daily basis, or when they point out to things they come across or in books, and sometimes they just “narrate” after the adults or DVDs. Our home became a lot noisier now.
I vaguely remember how their doctor put it in one of our visits to his clinic. He said “When the speech centre in their brain start to mature, words will flow. By then, you may not even be able to stop them from talking. So count your blessing that you are still able to enjoy some peaceful moments now.” How true!!!
Despite efforts to ensure we adults speak positively and “mind” our language, the girls still pick up some words from our conversation and reiterate them. Ya-Ya was sharing with me something about my sister’s maid one morning, and she said the word “dai” which means “girl” in her native language. Xuan was playing right next to me when she stood up all of a sudden and said “Die!” with her index finger bend slightly. It was so funny I nearly died laughing. None of us remember using this gesture to indicate death. Strange…
When I finally “reclaimed” my composure, I asked her “Who taught you that, baby? Did something or someone die?” Our dear friend then proudly wriggled her thumbs and index fingers (as if she is singing the song “Eensy Weensy Spider”), said “Ga-Ga died” before bouncing off happily back to her toys. For those who are not familiar with teochew (a local dialect), “Ga-Ga” means insects.
Such innocence… No wonder our Lord says "Verily I say unto you, unless ye be converted and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the Kingdom of Heaven. Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.” (Matthew 18:3-4 NKJV)
Friday, November 14, 2008
Struggle
A month ago, I was reading the blog of a friend who just started to place her twins in day care facilities because she was returning to the workforce, she mentioned “this deep pall of sadness” that's settled over her. And I went “Sh**! I bet I’m going to feel the same way when the munchkins start attending playgroup in Jan.”
And I was darn right! Except… I’m beginning to feel it NOW!!! Its only November and my heart seemed to ache whenever the thought of “surrendering” my 2 girls into the hands of strangers (though I've met and spoke with the supervisor numerous times) enters my pea brain. It started 2 days ago when the childcare centre called to inform me there will be 3 vacancies available in December, of which 2 had been reserved for the munchkins. I then asked for 24 hours to reconsider my initial decision and to discuss with Di.
You see, some time earlier this year, I requested the school to put us on waiting list for early entry in December though the official entry date was January 2009. Reason being Ya-Ya going on home leave in mid December, so sending the kids to school a month earlier seemed like the best thing to do. At that time, we were not sure if Di would be able to get leave clearance and even if he could, I’m rather “concerned” if he can survive the 16 days of daddy-hood with the munchkins at home while I continue my mommy role, plus manage the household chores.
However, Di got lots of “practical” sessions with the girls lately while I was busy attending gatherings and catching up with friends on weekends and public holidays. Some changes to his job scope also allowed him to obtain leave clearance during December. I was pleasantly surprised when he told me he is looking forward to the year end, though he is also praying for co-operation from his princesses while Ya-Ya is away.
Now, with that in mind, I was expecting Di to reject the early entry offer. Then as usual, Di’s response goes “Up to you. You decide.” Arrggghhhh… I struggled. And the two sides of my pea brain began a series of debate.
Left: Its only a month earlier. What’s the big deal?
Right: But they've a life time ahead of them to go to school. Shouldn't we just spare them for a month?
Left: They’ll enjoy school. There are things to learn, other kids to play with, things which they can never experience with you at home, so just let go and let God.
Right: I know… But they’re only two…
Left: They will still be two when you send them to school in January. What are you talking about???!!!
Right: I just feel bad… If I have to work and Di is not available in Dec, then we have legitimate reasons to send them earlier. But look! We’re both available, so why should we start them in Dec?
Left: If they start earlier, they won’t end up “frightened” by all the freshies (kids who enter in Jan 09) who’ll cry for their parents during the first week. Let them be the only ones crying in Dec, so teachers can comfort and focus on them. When new term starts in Jan, they’ll be more or less settled down, and not affected at all by the initial mayhem.
Right: You think so??? I’m not sure…
Left: Okay, think of how they annoy you at home? Think of those times when they fight for attention and toys! How about those occasions when they were extremely mischievous?
Right: Hmmm… I think its time they go to school.
I called the supervisor the following day. But at the very last minute, I decided they will start in mid December (the week before Ya-Ya goes home) instead of 1st December.
Since that phone call ended, I didn't feel any better. Tinges of sadness still linger and it has nothing with them starting childcare earlier. I guess all mothers sending their kids to childcare for the first time, whether their kids are 2 months, 2 years or older, feel the same sense of sadness and loss. It is one thing to understand the benefits of sending children to day care facilities. It is another to have your own toddlers walk through those school gates.
This feeling will probably linger on for some time still, and perhaps intensify as mid December approaches. Nevertheless, I have to keep my faith and believe God will make a way. He’ll take extra good care of my munchkins, and while they begin to fall in love with school, I’ll be able to move on with His plans for me.
Till then, pray with me.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Quality Time Part 2
However, it is a very different experience hanging out with En versus Xuan. I was more relaxed today as En is generally more cautious about the surrounding. She sticks around me and holds my hand most of the time, unlike Xuan who'll charge to wherever/whatever intrigues her. En also takes instructions better than Xuan. I had a good time engaging in "intellectual" conversations with her. :)
There are 2 things I noticed about En today:
1) She is more attached to Xuan than I thought. It was barely 3 minutes away from our home and she started turning back, asking for Xuan. And she mentioned Xuan 3-4 times during the short outing. Interestingly, she didn't think of Ya Ya. That took me by surprise though.
2) En's interest in books has extended to those beyond her age. Of course she still likes picture books or board books, but I did noticed her flipping through my books/Bible on my bedside table at times. At the reference section in the library, she took a book on Statistics off the shelf, sat on the carpeted floor and started going through the book. There were no pictures. Just words and numbers. I hope this interest continue throughout her life.
Lacking the athlete stamina (more prominent in Xuan), En knocked out earlier than expected. Before we could flag down a cab, she fell fast asleep! There was no way I could get her to rest her head on my shoulders, so my poor arm almost suffered a "fracture" from supporting the gal's head all the way home!!! Well, looks like I'll have to bring her stroller along for our next QT. Kekeke...
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Mid Thirties
It seemed to me the "mid thirties club" is not as well received as I had expected??? Initially, I thought the only ones who may be anxious about turning 35 are those who are trying to conceive. Otherwise, one should be proud to be 35! I AM! I love what I am now better than I was 10 years back. There's certainly room to live life to the fullest still, so I bet I'll love myself even more in the years to come. Assuming my "shelve life" to be approximately 70, I've already set one foot into my casket. Hence, it is important to make every second count in the days/years ahead, don't you think so?
So happy birthday to ME! May God grant me wisdom as I continue to grow in His love and unveil His plans for me! ^.^
"... Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him."
- 1 Corinthians 2:9 (NKJV)
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Quality Time
However, I can't remember when I last spent QT with En & Xuan. I felt so guilt stricken the day it struck me I had totally forgotten about QT. Ever since they were able to walk/run, we've been going out as a family most of the time, except when I have to bring them to the doctor when they take turns to fall sick.
The big "revelation" came on 1st October - Children's Day. I was on my way down town to have "a break from the kids" (while Di and Ya Ya babysit the girls) when I met a friend, her husband and their sweet little girl (Hayley) at the mall near our place. When I saw little Hayley holding the hand of her parents on both sides, I immediately felt sad for En & Xuan. They hardly (I won't say never but frankly, I can't recall if it ever took place) had the opportunity to hold both Di and my hands when we were out. Seriously, I don't think the munchkins realised (or are bothered by) this but I couldn't help feeling I had deprived the munchkins of undivided attention and love from both parents. Perhaps all parents with more than one kid felt the same???
Anyway, God brought to mind QT after that episode. With Di's busy work schedule lately, we hardly spend time together as a couple, let alone with the kids. Nevertheless, I resumed QT today by bringing Xuan out for nearly 3 hours. It felt so different going places with her with no specific agenda except to spend time together. We travelled on buses, took MRT rides, played with insects next to ponds, settled for lunch at The Galilee cafe before heading home in a cab. Can't believe how much I had missed all this while when QT was missing from our routine. Now I'm looking forward to my next outing with En and I am certain it'll be a fun-filled one as well.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Bhutan and the dragon
Though I have no intention to groom the munchkins into geologists, the munchkins, however, developed a keen interest in the world map ever since I place one (with flags of the world printed all over it) in their bedroom. They are able to identify at least 10 flags of the world now, which is quite an achievement for 2-year old, I thought. But there is a little joke about Bhutan which I’d like to share here.
You see, the reason why some country’s flag drew the attention of the munchkins is simple. These “interesting” flags had NO stars, crescent or cross on it, unlike the dozens of other flags in the world. The flag of Bhutan is one of the very unique ones. It has a dragon on it (see photo below).

When Xuan first pointed out Bhutan’s flag, I was glad but not surprised. Then I took the opportunity to teach her the word “dragon”. She started pointing to her MamyPoko Pull Up Pants and I was puzzled. I tried to ignore her little gesture and continued my “dragon” topic by talking about the cartoon series “Dragon Tales”. But she was persistent at trying to get my attention as well.
It came to a point where I had to look at her straight in the eye and said “Look, those are Pooh bears printed on your diaper. They've nothing to do with dragons.” “Poo poo”, she said. “Yes, Pooh bears! Winnie the Pooh has nothing to do with dragons, my dear!” Xuan shook her head, pat her butt this time and exclaimed “Poo poo!” All of a sudden, the truth began to dawn on me. She had dragon fruit for afternoon snack and it all came out in her poo. How did she know? I told her so when I was changing her diaper!!! LOL!
So what has dragon got to do with her poo? Dragon fruits are in it!!! Kekeke… So now we all remember where Bhutan is and how its national flag look like. Ha!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Happy 2nd Birthday

En & Xuan turned 2 today. A monumental stage for most toddlers, I guess, as they officially enter the Terrible Twos Club. To the munchkins, however, apart from the family gathering held to celebrate their "coming of age" last Saturday, birthdays are just like any other day. Life goes on, that is, if they actually "bother" about life in the first place. That's the beauty (or rather, bliss) of being a 2 year-old.
For me, today brings a whole lot of mix feelings as I took them for a morning walk. Looking back at how far we've come, I'm simply speechless when I think about how I was "born again" over a mere 24-month period. Well, I am still who I am today, yet I am more than what I was 2 years back. You know what I mean? It is not an increase in material possessions, wealth or knowledge kind of thing we're talking about here. It is character development resulting from a steep (very steep indeed) learning curve, tears, joy, bitterness, laughter, etc. You wouldn't want to trade this experience for anything in the world, even if there were more bitter times than happy ones. From the very moment you hear that soft, sweet voice whispering "mama" in your ears, you know the tears were worth it - every single bit of it!
Happy Birthday, my joy, my love, my revelations! For God gave you both to me, just so I could have a better understanding of myself. Thank you, God, for En & Xuan.

(En & Xuan having a good time at the park in the morning of their 2nd birthday.)
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Sleepless and Sick
Previously when the munchkins fell ill, Ya Ya and I could still manage without additional help. Its amazing how we could "operate" in the day despite sleep deprivation over a few nights. On some nights, I think I only had maximum 2 hours of undisturbed sleep. Once the thermoscan reads 38.5°C or above, my mind will subconsciously stay awake even though my eyelids are down.
This time, I had to ask Gong Gong (my dad) to come over to help babysit the girls during the day, just so Ya Ya and I could take a break or catch some sleep. The entire household is down with cold, cough and body ache! Poor Di couldn't even take a day off because he is involved in the preparation of the first ever F1 Night Race held in town starting this coming Friday. He had to complete urgent tasks and be "on site standby" till 2 am during the race. He can't even "afford" to be sick. Can you beat that???
At home, Ya Ya and I are very grateful to Gong Gong for helping to "entertain" the 2 sick girls. He also bought us yummy meals (and herbal drinks too) so we don't have to worry about cooking or grocery shopping. Many thanks to Gong Gong!!! *Hugz*
I'm so looking forward to complete recovery for my family. Until then, please keep us in your prayers. Gracias!
Friday, September 19, 2008
8th Wedding Anniversary
With the 2 munchkins now, I guess we will have to think thrice before engaging ourselves in any audacious acts. But the most predictable thing about life is its unpredictability, so it's tough to have to think twice, let alone thrice. Once you start thinking, you may have already missed the boat!!!
Oh God, there I go again... Please keep me firmly grounded, I pray. Give me wisdom, patience and self-control. Amen.
P/S: Before I forget, happy anniversary, Di. I'm not very hopeful that we'll get to dine together tonight, but I'm praying... kekeke...
“Living a life of faith means never knowing where you are being led. But it does mean loving and knowing the One who is leading. It is literally a life of faith, not of understanding and reason – a life of knowing him who calls us to go.” - Oswald Chambers.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Baby #3
Well, yes, we've got an infant at home. But, no, it NOT ours. Curious (or rather nosey) neighbours must be “shocked” to find me carrying a 3-month old infant around the estate. Well, it’s not baby #3 for us despite the attractive baby bonus package announced by the government last month. But I must admit there were times when Di and I thought “How nice if she’s ours”. And she… is Natasha, my niece.
Note: We will be babysitting Natasha for 2 weeks because my sister (suffering from post natal depression) has no helper.
Am I having second thoughts about having another child? No, I don’t think so. I would, if my next child comes with a "100% Sweetie Pie Guarantee". Hahaha… Personally, I find it hard to imagine going through the entire cycle of raising an infant to toddler again, especially with the munchkins into their terrible twos phase now. Plus, there are tonnes of things I‘d like to do and I’m only a few months away from “getting a life” (when the munchkins go to school). I've too much to risk, agree?
Still counting down…
765 days had gone by since I was gainfully employed.
113 more days before I regain my freedom.
A couple more months before I start life “afresh”.
Baby #3? Err… maybe, perhaps, we’ll see…
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Funeral
Di’s granny is 104 this year. He’s been the apple of her eyes since he was a little boy. Yesterday, we bid her farewell as she ends her life journey peacefully in the comfort of her home. As some of the family members went ahead to arrange for her funeral, others sat around reminiscing. Di even sobbed when he called me last night. I wish granny was around to witness that or hear those lovely words everyone said about her.
I’ve always thought it makes more sense to hold a funeral service when one is alive (or rather, when one is about to die). Why bother to play my chosen songs, read my favourite scriptures and share how you feel about me… when I’m lying in a stiff, cold casket. Then again, I doubt anyone would support my “Pre-Funeral” idea, and my dad would probably think I’m crazy. So I guess I’d probably try my luck again in my golden years. Kekeke…
Reminder to Di, En & Xuan
In the event I had to return home to the Lord unexpectedly, please read my favourite scripture Psalm 27 and play the following songs at my funeral.
- Amazing Grace (sang by Hayley Westenra in the album “Pure”)
- Pokarekare Ana (sang by Hayley Westenra in the album “Pure”)
- 牽我的手 (by Pastor 林义忠)
Thanks!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Job Satisfaction
I was pleasantly surprised yesterday by how fulfilled I was when I managed to "housekeep" the munchkins' few toy chests. Firstly, having cleared up the "mess" satisfies the slight OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) in me to have a neat and tidy home. Secondly, the excess toys were either worn out (to be disposed, of course) or no longer age appropriate. And what we normally do is pass on the ones in good condition to younger kids of family or friends, or send the loot to The Salvation Army. That again, satisfies my self actualisation needs because it means I am able and willing to give.
Lastly, and also the most important point is, my kids are developing and growing so well, they no longer need their kiddy toys. Outgrowing these toys means they've moved on to other toys which requires higher level of intellectual and motor skills (eg. colouring books, puzzles, play dough, etc.). And that's job satisfaction for a mommy too! At the very least, it satisfies a self-centred mommy like me who simply can't wait for the kids to grow up. :)
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Mishap or Miracle
There were no tears. No one actually knew how bad the impact was until she stood up, turned to look at the door stopper and exclaimed "Huhhhhh!!!!" There lying on the floor was the door stopper, and a metal piece with screws which was supposed to hold the door stopper to the wall (see photo below). The entire piece had been brought down on impact!!! Di had to hammer the entire metal piece back on the wall after that, before the door stopper can be screwed on to it again.

While Di was busy playing the handyman, my heart raced as I checked for wounds/bruises on Xuan. She had an angry red, bruised area where her left kidney is located. No obvious cuts because the gathers of her Mamypoko pants cushioned her soft skin. My heart felt like it had been sliced into pieces, nonetheless. I prayed that night, asking for God's healing (should there be internal injuries which the naked eyes can't see) and thanking Him for watching over the munchkins when I wasn't. She could have been hit on her head, can you imagine that???!!!
Xuan went to sleep smiling that night. The entire incident didn't bothered her at all while Di and I had to discuss action plans for the following day should bruises or signs of discomfort surface. It's been 3 days and we really thank God for delivering His promise to protect the girls while we committed them into His hand. Xuan woke up on Sunday with no bruises, no signs of discomfort and no recollection of the ordeal. She's a miracle child indeed.
Note
We managed to work out an interim solution. That is to wrap the door stopper with a foam pad (see picture below). If you have any better suggestions, please share. Thanks!

Friday, August 22, 2008
Notice on Shutterfly
For those of you who are regular visitors to the munchkins’ Shutterfly albums, or perhaps one of their fans who had already formed your own “fan club” (kekeke…), please do note that the password to the newly revamped site remained unchanged - twins. I had the password shortened to these 5 alphabets to make it easier for everyone, but I will not remove the security layer for obvious reasons.
In case you’re wondering why I bother to reveal the password here if security means so much to me, its because I’m fully aware the “viewership” of this blog hasn't come to the point where tight security measures had to be put in place. Hahaha…
Anyway, I hope you enjoy the refreshing new look of the web page. The Shutterfly team certainly deserves a big hug for the amazing face lift, don’t they? Keep checking out the site for updates, ya?
Love, Di and me
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Something about Di
Actually, if you were to ask me to sum him up in a phrase, I’d say Di is a chronic patient with the “disease to please”. That’s one of the reasons why he is always so busy – living for others. But most of the time, I’d say he’s pretty pleased when people show their appreciation or gratitude towards him for helping out. And I’m proud of his generosity (in terms of time and effort) as long as he doesn't complain because I am, apparently, his only audience. Not by choice though. Kekeke…
But there is one aspect of him which many of us (family & close friends) knew about and are often appalled by that trait of his – he forgets things almost instantly! No, he’s not suffering from sever memory loss or early dementia. My guess is his memory is operating at maximum capacity (because he has so much to think about), so there’s hardly any space left in his brain to store new inputs, thus resulting in that blur or “Huh???” look on his face most of the time.
The most classic example would be the night when I was sent to the hospital for an emergency c-section to deliver the munchkins. All that anxiousness from knowing my waterbag broke and our gynae's advise to admit to the hospital immediately must have caused a sever adrenaline rush in his brain. He managed to calm down a little after we arrived at the hospital. While waiting for everyone to get ready for the operation, the father-to-be felt somewhat relaxed and decided to grab a quick bite together with his colleague (who kindly rushed over to the hospital with his Mrs to see if help is required). And guess what? What I thought would be a 15-minute break for him turned out much longer than expected because our DEAR FRIEND forgot he’s got a wife in labour in the hospital directly opposite the coffeeshop where he’s enjoying his dinner!!! I gave up after calling his mobile repeatedly (at least 10 times). Thanks God his colleague noticed the vibrating mobile phone and he rushed back in the nick of time when the nurse was about to wheel me into the operating room. Phew!
Although Di brings “headaches” to my life, he is, at the same time, pretty capable of making me laugh with his witty conversations and nonsensical comments. The munchkins will certainly have more fun growing up with a father as such than one who is a stern and serious. So daddy’s not the disciplinarian at home? Nope! Leave that part to… yes, you’re right! Yours truly!
"Nevertheless let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband." - Ephesians 5:33 (NKJV)
"And you, fathers, do not provoke your children to wrath, but bring them up in the training and admonition of the Lord."
- Ephesians 6:4 (NKJV)
Monday, August 18, 2008
Where is the Green underpants?
Then, another silly mistake by Ya Ya this morning resulted in a 30 minute hunt for a pair of Green underpants. Xuan would normally get her morning bath first simply because she loves playing with water and couldn't wait. This morning, En got to shower first when it was bath time, as Xuan was having her "time out" with me for throwing a tantrum.
After bath time, I recalled seeing a pair of Yellow underpants on the floor when Ya Ya was dressing Xuan. This is pretty normal as the munchkins are now able to take off their underpants and occasionally put them back on. However, I found Xuan running around later on with only her diaper on while En had the Yellow underpants on her. I highlighted to Ya Ya and she started looking around for the missing "Green underpants", and at the same time, asked Xuan where she had "hidden" it. (Note: Xuan has the habit of hiding toys and stuff under the dinning chair cushions or any funny corners she can find.) We were preparing to go marketing, so before long, we had clean forgotten about it and Xuan ended up going to the mall without any underpants.
When we reached home, the first thing we did was to search for the missing article. I even looked out of the window to see if Xuan had thrown it down the flat. Approximately half an hour later and having combed nearly the entire house, I decided we should just leave the mysterious Green underpants alone. Just then, I had a strange idea which prompted me to check on En. Viola!!! She had 2 underpants on her!!! The Green one first followed by the Yellow one!!!
I laughed and laughed... Well, Ya Ya remembered putting on a pair of Green underpants for the twin who got showered first, but forgot that twin was En instead of Xuan. Secondly, she conveniently put on the Yellow underpants, on top of the Green one for En without even realising it. So that solves the mystery of the missing Green underpants.
If you think this is funny, you had better pray hard you will not have twins. *Wink*
Monday, August 11, 2008
Maid-less???
Moreover, its been a really long time since we last spent a day together as a family. Yes, I mean, just the 4 of us – Di, me, En & Xuan. It was tiring as we brought the munchkins for a near 2-hour morning walk, and then an evening walk which lasted about an hour. But we enjoyed the day thoroughly, though I hope it doesn't become a daily thing. Hahaha…
You know, Ya Ya was sweet enough to have showered the munchkins and cooked their lunch before she left for her once-a-month break. I get to skip the laundry and cooking chores altogether, and yet I still felt exhausted at the end of the day as compared to the usual routine. So can you imagine if I had to juggle those duties as well? Arrggghhhh!!! Help!!!
By now, I must confess I’m one of those who cannot live without my helper. Not just any helper, but in particular, our beloved Ya Ya. Kudos to all the domestic helpers out there who made our lives a lot more manageable, agree???!!! I was very glad to have Ya Ya back at home last night. Very, very glad indeed…
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
The Journey... thus far
Parenting a child is tough. More so if you’re a parent to a set of twins, triplets, quads, etc. I’m sure my dear friends (Geck, Serene, Michelle, Karen, Fi, Carmen, Irin, Jess and many other mommies who are in the same shoes as me) will agree totally with me that our twins are a tremendous blessing and immense bother to us at times. I experience joy and laughter on a daily basis as much as I feel frustrated, sometimes angry or even close to tears. Yet whenever the storm’s calm down and the coast is clear, God’s soft, gentle voice will heard, telling me the munchkins are wonderfully made by Him and generously given to me. Hence I have to love and embrace them, faithfully raise them and shower them with care like precious gems.
Sometimes, I surrender myself and commit my parenting journey to God. At times, like my rebellious twins, I turn away from God in anger, taking advantage of the fact that my heavenly Father will be right behind me no matter what (please forgive me, Father!).
Twins. Twice the dosage of everything indeed. But, they are one of the reasons why I’m so in awe of God. And I pray they will be too…
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Who's the Boss?
Indeed, when I refer to the 4 dimensions of the DISC Personality Tests, I'd classify the munchkins as follows:
- Dominance - EN (for being active in dealing with challenges, egocentric, strong willed, determined, etc. )
- Influence - XUAN (influence others through talk & activity, magnetic, enthusiastic, warm, etc.)
- Steadiness - both En & Xuan (or most toddlers for that matter) would probably get low scores for this as they've yet to learn how to control or handle emotions. However, XUAN would probably get a higher score for steadiness since she is generally more calm, relaxed and can be a little poker-faced at times.
- Conscientiousness - EN (careful, cautious, neat, systematic, exacting, etc.)
En had once again proven my analysis right when we were at the playground this morning. Well, we were all up by 6am, so to kick start the day, we decided to head down to the playground before the burning morning sun starts to heat up the vicinity. The munchkins were clearly "informed" that we'd have to leave by the time the sun rays reaches the slides. It all went well and we had fun, laughter, giggles plus occasional screams.
Suddenly, En pointed to the risen sun, beaming on the playground, turned her head around and gave a very reluctant look on her face. I interpreted that as "Oh no, the sun's here. I wish we don't have to go." Ya Ya reminded her what was agreed upon earlier, and our little friend walked towards the lift lobby with disappointment on her face. Then she turned around, and saw Xuan struggling with Ya Ya. Annoyed by the commotion, the big sister shouted "Ehhhhh..." pointing at Xuan, then the sun. She seemed to be telling her sister off for not abiding by the "rules"!
Well, it seemed clear to me now that En's the boss, despite Xuan being somewhat aggressive at times. Now I'm almost certain Xuan will be "well taken care of" by En when they attend playgroup next year.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Law & Order
I must confess I'm one of those parents who allow my kids to regress every time they fall ill. I'll try to give in to their demands, as long as it keeps them calm. Much as I know inconsistency is confusing to the kids, the feeling of being totally defeated, especially when I'm dead tired from sleep deprivation and on the verge of losing my mind, just makes me irrational amidst the mayhem.
This morning, after battling numerous episodes of the munchkins' dramatic acts, coupled with exhaustion from 3 sleepless nights in a row, I find myself losing my voice instead of my mind. That's a result of me speaking (at times, shouting) aloud for the past 4 days in order to be heard, while munchkins wailed or fought.
My partially deaf right ear seemed hurt from the cruel screams of my two 21-month old tots. I had to cover it whenever a new fight sparks off. But my sanity is still in place (thank God!). The munchkins finally cornered me to the point I decided enough is enough. I've just applied the good old "Cold Turkey" treatment on them by putting away items which were the "source" of their numerous fights. The usual rules were reinstated. As a result, Xuan had a 4-minute time-out this morning, while En got smacked on her hand twice for throwing a tantrum, hitting Xuan and attempting to hit Ya Ya as well.
Well, sounds like war at home? No! In fact, peace had just been restored the moment "law and order" is put back in place. In order to maintain the level of "social security and stability" at home, I'm starting to review and set new KPIs for the munchkins. *Evil grin*
Thursday, July 17, 2008
R.P.
- Bukit Timah Nature Reserve
- East Coast Park
- Jacob Ballas Children's Garden
- Regional & Community Libraries
- Sembawang Park
- Singapore Changi Airport (the new Terminal 3 in particular)
- The Southern Ridges (9-kilometre chain of green, open spaces spanning the rolling hills of Mount Faber Park, Telok Blangah Hill Park and Kent Ridge Park before ending at West Coast Park)
- Spacious. A must have for walking/running toddlers.
- Have facilities which keep toddlers occupied (Let's face it! Tots are capable of coming up with at least 3 activities from a mere long bench!)
- Admission is free.
But for a non-driver like me, travelling to some of these places with the tots can be a real challenge. Distance is also another major deterrent factor. Hence, I've been cracking my thick skull, searching for a venue which I can bring the tots to for "workout" on a regular basis, without having to lug a "luggage" along. And guess what? I found one!!!
I managed to catch up with my sister over lunch few days back at her workplace and I found the place a fantastic venue for the kids to "workout". My sister teaches at the RP (Republic Polytechnic) which is about 15 minutes bus ride from my place. The campus' 20-hectare area consists of environmental friendly features, greenery, water features & huge air conditioned open spaces (mostly carpeted). It is indeed a "Campus In the Park".
So I brought the munchkins there the following day. As expected, they were thrilled to see stairways, ramps and the water features. By the time we were done exploring the main building, the tots were exhausted. It took them only 5 minutes to drift off to sleep by the time we got home. Well, we'll definitely go back there to explore other areas of the campus real soon! :)
Monday, July 14, 2008
Play
Well, first of all, I must say its very fun to watch the munchkins play. They play with toys, with each other, with other kids and on their own. Sometimes, the funny sound they make while playing with finger puppets makes me want to laugh aloud. They can make the sound of a bear or lion roar, but can you imagine a frog "chirping" or a giraffe "meowing"??? Yet I have to really control myself and watch quietly, or they might just throw in the towel and run off.
Just this morning, I decided to replace the usual star-shaped bites or Coco Crunch with transparent pebbles in their "transfer game". The "transfer game" is the term I decided to use for training them on the proper use of bowls, cups as well as spoons. They'll have to make use of the spoon to scoop up the snacks from the bowl, transfer them into the cup before scooping the loot from the cup and then reward themselves with the food. Its kind of fun, but I'm beginning to find it too easily achievable because the snacks are way too lightweight compared to proper food served in meals.
So I carefully cleaned some transparent pebbles (see photo of the pebble which resembles a candy) before putting them into their bowls. Ya Ya was a little worried they might swallow the clear stones, assuming those are candies. I decided its not a cause for worry since I'll be personally supervising them. Turn out they did attempt to eat them but after 2 stern warnings, they seemed to "get the message" that those were not edible. At the end of the game, both managed to learn the word "pebble" as well though one can only hear "-ble" from their lips.
Okie, I've gotta go and think of more "games" and "activities" for the munchkins' play. Ciao!

Thursday, July 10, 2008
Silent Conversations
[Munchkins point to the DVD player.]
Me: You want to watch DVDs?
Munchkins nod their heads.
Me: What would you like to watch?
Silence… (Probably vocalising the titles inside their tiny little brain)
Me: Would you like to watch Elmo (refers to Sesame Street series)?
Munchkins shake their heads.
Me: How about Hi-5 (refers to the Hi-5 series)?
Munchkins shake their heads again.
Me: Is it Nemo (refers to the movie “Finding Nemo”)?
Munchkins shake their heads this time with some displeasure on their faces.
Me: Then, how about Ah-Bu (refers to the character in the movie “Monster Inc.”)?
Munchkins shake their heads vigorously and start to make noise.
Me: Okay, is it Mickey (refers to Mickey Mouse Clubhouse series) then?
Munchkins grin from ear to ear, nodding their heads simultaneously.
You know what? Such “silent” conversation doesn’t always end on a happy note. There are times when I feel like quitting the human race when I’ve exhausted the list (and sub-listing like the titles under Sesame Street or Hi-5 series!!!) and still haven’t got the right answer! It is having to guess every single possible answer to their request that’s the silent killer! Forget those books which advocate giving choices to tots but limiting the options to 2. It doesn’t work all the time. I have come to realise a particular trick which works better – don’t even ask! Just play whatever DVDs I feel like it. More often than not, they’ll just watch along with me or run off to play on their own if they are not interested. Perfect!
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Live the Dream!
Exactly 5 weeks later, on 20 June, while going through a daily devotional material, I was so encouraged by the opening passage because it really speaks into my heart where this issue is concerned. Here’s what it says:
“If God tells you to do something, He will give you the energy, talent, resources – whatever you need – to do it. Where God guides, He provides.” (Rick Warren, founding pastor of Saddleback Church in Lake Forest, California.)
Such timely reassurance! I continue to pray about it, and it took me another week to have the courage to share this with the other very-important-men in my life – my dad. And boy, was I thankful he didn’t scream with remarks like “How are you going to raise your children with that kind of salary & working hours!!!” He listened quietly to my sharing and thought about it for a while. Guess what? Those 8 seconds were the longest silence I ever endured in my entire life! “It is hard work. Nevertheless, it is a career worth considering. You decide. It’s your call.” I was thankful, encouraged and relieved. Nothing beats having the favour of my Father above and the support of my dad on earth.
So, yes! Be prepared to bump into me in the coming year, strutting around in the MRT, clad in jeans, tee shirt and struggling with notes and reference books. I’m going back to school!!! Yippee...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
“If Jesus Lived Inside My Heart”
If Jesus lived inside my heart,
Would other people know?
Perhaps he’d use all parts of me
To love and shine and glow!
If Jesus used my eyes, I think
He might just recommend
That when I see a child alone,
I’d try to be her friend.
I’d offer her some bubble gum
Or ask if she might like
To shoot some hoops of basketball
Or try out my new trike.
Would Jesus use my mouth to say
“I’m sorry” when I’m wrong?
Or offer kind encouragement
For friends to get along?
I think he’d use my arms to give
Big warm and snugly hugs
And hold my baby sister when
She’s scared of creepy bugs
My hands could make nice cards to send
To Grandma far away.
I’d also rub Mom’s shoulders when
She’s had a busy day.
I’d use my gifts and talents that
God’s given to me to share.
I’d play a song for Grandpa and
His friends to show I care.
I’d always try to do what’s best,
So someone else might see
That Jesus lives inside my heart
And works through little me!
And if there were one cookie left,
I’d know just what to do…
I’d split it with my brother ‘cause
He’d want a cookie too.
I know I sometimes make mistakes.
I’m messy and I spill.
Then, what does Jesus think of me?
Does Jesus love me still?
I think he’d say, “I love you, Child,
More than you’ll ever know.
Since you have given me your heart,
I’ll never let you go.
I’ll work through you and shine through you
Just like the brightest light.
I’ll guide each precious step you take
And help you do what’s right.
And though I live inside of you,
I’m here for all to see.
When others see your acts of love…
They’re also seeing me.”
And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts,
Living within you as you trust in him.
– Ephesians 3:17, The Living New Testament.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Singapore Flyer
What if it rained as well? Di said we could shop around the area since there's a mall below the gigantic facility, or even head down to Suntec City should the weather let us down.
What if the munchkins get bored halfway through the ride and wants to get off? You know its totally impossible. And what if they turn cranky because of that? Won't that affect the other passengers on board the capsule? Again, Di reasoned we won't be "trapped' inside the capsule with too many people, considering it was a weekday. So if they do turn cranky? We pray for understanding from the other riders? There were so many "what if"s ringing in my head...
Anyway, conclusion, Di felt its a wiser choice to go to the Flyer, and so I just commit the day (and weather) to God and off we went. The rain stopped before our arrival, and the munchkins get a never clearer view of the skyline on board! We shared the capsule with another family of 6 from India. It was a great experience and nope, there were only laughter and smiles throughout the ride. What more can we ask for? There is no doubt the wisest among us all is --- the almighty GOD!
Here are 2 pix taken from the Flyer for viewing pleasure.

"To God our Savior,
Who alone is wise,
Be glory and majesty,
Dominion and power,
Both now and forever.
Amen" - Jude verse 25 NKJV
Monday, June 16, 2008
My First Niece

Sunday, June 15, 2008
Father's Day
Anyway, its Father's Day today and we've got nothing planned. Just as I celebrated Mother's Day managing the kids & chores (cos it was Ya-Ya's off day), Di will stay at home to help babysit the munchkins while I head down to my sister's place later. Well, its not that I'm as evil as to intentionally make him work hard on Father's day. Our kiddos are down with cold/cough and my sister is doing her confinement, so I can't risk the girls infecting little Natasha, my first niece, who arrived last Saturday.
So I guess Mother's and Father's Day will continue to be quite boring until the munchkins are older? Or maybe it should continue to remain this "low profile" as a family tradition? After all, if you love your parents, the celebration should be an everyday event instead of an annual affair, isn't it? And you don't need throw elaborated luncheons/dinners to show your love for them, right?
On a separate note, I think I'd better remind En & Xuan in future that mommy & daddy won't mind a good lunch/dinner at a fine Japanese restaurant (note: must serve fresh, yummy sashimi) on any other days except Father's & Mother's Day. Hahaha... Just kidding!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Farewell 1... Welcome 2
So why is that different from any other day/month? Well, I kind of label toddlers who are age 20 months and above as BIG kids. Its the same logic as saying you're 19 years old, and everyone goes "Wow, so young!" And then the moment you hit the big 2, people start to see you as an adult. When you finally reach "attained" level 3 (age 30)... you can almost join the Senior Citizen's Club! Hahaha...
Anyway, I suspect by the time the munchkins hits 2 years of age, I'll feel very awkward telling others they are 24, 26, or 30 months old. We'll probably use "years" as an unit of measurement instead. So they'll be 2, followed by 2½, blah, blah, blah... After all, when my sister delivers her baby girl in a few weeks time (I'm so looking forward to that day!), En & Xuan will lose their "Baby" title in the household. So I'd better get them used to being labelled as big kids now. :)
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
"Jon & Kate Plus 8"
Nope, they are not my friends, neighbours or relatives. They are a family of 10 who resides in Central Pennsylvania and are the main cast of a reality TV series entitled "Jon & Kate Plus 8". Check out the series on SCV's channel 70 (Discovery Home & Health) at 5pm daily from Mon-Fri. Alternatively, find out more on www.sixgosselins.com
Why do I love them so? Because Kate is such an amazing woman who is humorous, totally "human"and yet capable of handling a pair of 7 year old twins PLUS a set of 3 year old sextuplets! Not forgetting the tonnes of laundry to be done and having to prepare 3 piping hot meals a day for the entire family.
Okie, yes, she does yell at her kids, sometimes she enters into "switch off" mode, and she may seemed overbearing in certain situations. BUT, I can totally understand those moments because I probably experience only a tenth of her stress daily, yet I feel like admitting myself to an asylum at times. Imagine how much love Kate harbours in her heart when managing her 8 kids. It takes an overflowing fountain of affection to remain "human" at the end of every day. And for that, I bet she prays at least 100 times more than I do a day.
Jon is equally adorable and witty. I see a little bit of him in Di and I'm proud of them both. Both are dedicated fathers who works hard to bring home the bacon, and still try to make time for the kids and family activities.
Well, a mommy of multiples from the SMH forum once said "GOD won't give you multiples unless He knows you CAN handle it". I'm beginning to agree with her. How else can you explain the presence of my very capable and cheerful maid. She must be GOD sent. Hahaha...
Monday, June 2, 2008
5290 Days
And for the next 20 years where she had lived.
She was tall, fair and a little heavy on the bottom, a result of child bearing.
But her short, well set hairstyle never made her any less feminine.
She was young, yet strong as she braves the tides of life,
A great source of comfort, a wellspring of love I can't deny.
When she was laid to rest in the cold December rain,
I was sad, yet glad she's relieved of all the pain.
There'd be a birthday dinner thrown for her today, had she lived.
I wish for her to be here, for there are so many things she had missed.
She'd be delighted to help babysit En & Xuan;
She'd be walking them every evening, holding their hands.
There are a thousand and one thoughts I'd like to share with her;
I needed her to know how much I love and appreciate her.
Now I look forward to the day we meet in the heavenly places,
Till then, a very Happy 56th Birthday, my mommy, my dearest.
Born - 2 June 1952
Deceased - 8 December 1993
Missed - 5290 days
Remembered - always
The above short poem is written in remembrance of the most important woman of my life; who's fondly remembered till this date by my dad and her 4 princesses - Teng, ah bee, Airene and me.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Self Feed
En insisted on feeding herself, very unusual for a toddler who has always been given the "princess" treatment. Anyway, self feeding is one of their KPIs I've listed on the routine chart for them, so I decided we'll just let her be.
It was a very amusing sight initially when the bee hoon simply won't remain on the fork by the time the cutlery reaches her mouth. Slowly, but steadily, she managed to put a strand into her mouth, then use her fingers on her left hand to push the noodle in! And she just keep getting better. By the time we were done with our lunch, our little princess had almost got everything in her bowl into her tummy, on her clothes and everywhere within 20cm radius of where she was, which is not too bad considering she's not seated on her high chair but standing at the coffee table.
Well, looks like its high time to get the bib (with a holding pocket) out for meal times. Not forgetting the picnic mat as well. Self feed training will start from today!!!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Holiday
Ya Ya's current contract with us is terminating in December. Time flies... Though I hate to admit life's going to be chaotic without her around for 2 weeks plus, I can understand her longing to be home since she hasn't seen her family for coming to 3 years. Being a mother myself, I too feel for her parents. They must miss her dearly.
So while Ya Ya have a good time celebrating the festive period back in Philippines, Di and I are going to toddler-sit the munchkins. Looks like we'll be lugging the munchkins around to parties and gatherings (provided Di muster the courage to do so! Hahaha...) and there'll be days where I'll be holding the fort alone because of Di's work commitment. I pray I'll survive those dreadful days! (God, help me!)
Now here comes the most exciting event of all. We'll be dressing the munchkins in their first sets of school uniform and sending them off to school at the start of the year! Di and I would probably have to hold each one of them by their hand, walk them into their classroom and watch them begin a new chapter of their lives. Hmmm... Just thinking about this makes me a little emotional...
Anyway, its just as well Ya Ya's only returning from her holiday on the 5th. Otherwise, we might conveniently get her, instead of Di, involved in the kiddos first day at school. It'll be really sad for Di to miss out another of the many "firsts " in En & Xuan's life. :)
Ironically, I think I'm starting to look forward to the end of the year! Hey, I can almost hear the jingle bells and taste the yummy log cakes already! Kekeke...
Friday, May 23, 2008
Routine
In the munchkins' first year, many mommies I knew often emphasize on the importance of a routine for their infants or toddlers. It never occur to me why it should be so and honestly, I couldn't be bothered to find out why. My usual response to these mommies would be "Why do you want to organise your life around your kid's schedule? It should be the other way round, isn't it?" As such, whenever we have an appointment and my girls are still napping when its time to go, I'd just put them in my arms and make our way there. Very often, they'd wake up by the time we hit the lift lobby of our flat. Sleepy but happy to be out of the house, they'd normally behave themselves, so I don't see the need for a routine then. Looking back, I count myself very blessed to have breezed through the first year. Or perhaps, I'm already suffering from dementia such that I cannot recall those difficult times in the first 12 months of motherhood. Kekeke... (Oops! I should review my earlier blogs before posting this! Hahaha...)
Over the past 2 months, I began to intensively read up on books on the toddler years because I find myself suffering burnouts and getting stuck in "no win" situation so very often with the munchkins. And guess what? Routine, routine, routine... This word kept appearing pages after pages in one of the books I read, until I decided to seriously give it a try. I have a chart placed on the door to the storage room, so everyone at home have a clear idea what activities are expected for the munchkins throughout the day. So far it was Di who find the routine particularly useful because he now knows exactly what to do for/with the girls on his off days. As for me, I'm trying my best to stick to it, though I still find myself deviating from it time and again. Hee! Old habits die hard!
But I must stressed that post implementation of the chart, the kiddos are napping longer and sleeping better lately. They also seemed a lot happier. It may not be directly due to the routine but its definitely because I can better manage them (and my own expectations) after so much reading. For a person who's not an avid reader, this is an achievement, you know! Hopefully my pea brain can retain those information or I may have to revisit those books again. Darn!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Career Switch
However, there is a particular field which I'd love to be in, but somehow that "ambition" was never materialised. I guess my circumstances never favoured that "ambition" through those years of career building, so the craving to be in that field was "lost in transit". Then today, yes, just this morning, I was reminded of that "ambition" again. You see, Di took the munchkins and Ya-Ya with him to his parents' place and I had time (and the entire house) to myself, so I started to "catch up" with my thoughts. I thought of what I'd love to do in my golden years, and that led me to rethink my plans for the coming year, which in turn brings to mind that desire for my long lost "ambition".
As usual, I don't think this reminder came as a coincidence. God must have prompted me for I have been wondering what I should or could do as a career come next year when the kiddos go to playgroup. Despite $$$ being very important to ensure our monthly income covers our expenditure, I selfishly hope I can still embark on a career which satisfies my self-actualisation needs even though they don't pay big bucks.
So my dear friends, pray with me for confirmation and assurance. As long as I know this is His plan for me, I would fearlessly take the step of faith and go forth. I need to know, and I know I will know... I just have to walk and wait upon the Lord. And that's the most challenging task for an impatient brat like me. So pleeeeeeease, pray with me and for me! Thanks!
"Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord." - Psalm 27:14 (New Living Translation)
Saturday, May 3, 2008
2nd Date with Di
I SMSed Ling about my plans and to my surprise, she not only volunteered to babysit the girls, she asked if she could bring them (along with Ya-Ya) to the regional library. She had been wanting to get the girls there to explore the library cos she found the decor (a bunch of cute, colourful mushrooms) very attractive, especially for toddlers like En & Xuan.
So there you have it! A fabulous weekend plan for the family. Ling arrived at 10am to "pick" the 3 of them up then head straight for the library. After the "battalion" left, Di read the papers without any rascals pulling away the pages, while I updated my blog. We headed for Sakae Sushi at 11.30am to avoid the lunch crowd. Our craving for sashimi was finally satisfied at a total damage of $66+. We then spend the next hour doing grocery shopping - something we haven't done together in ages!
We would love to have more time to ourselves, but we had to head home. I had arranged a playdate with the mommy of another pair of twins that afternoon. Nevertheless, the 4 hours break was enough for me to feel like we're "newly weds" again. Hahaha... Sorry, kids! I'm not denying your existence. Both En & Xuan are my absolute darlings but daddy has to come first. After all, he's providing for all of us, so we had better treat him well. Kekeke...
So when's our next date, Di?
Elevator
But when I headed for the kitchen to wash my hands after I helped the munchkins put on their shoes, I heard my dad shouting for me frantically from the corridor. In my heart, I was thinking "Did you forget to bring something? Wet wipes? Biscuits? Do you have to shout this loud?" as I brisk-walked to the door.
There at the main door was Xuan, standing alone and looking pretty innocent. Then as I turn to the direction of the lift lobby, I could see Gong Gong shouting my name, staring at the floor indicator and pressing the elevator buttons almost at light speed. And you guessed it! En was nowhere to be found!!!
I rushed to the lift lobby immediately, leaving Ya-Ya to pick up Xuan and ran after me. Gong Gong tried to explain in details how he had left En at the lift lobby while running after Xuan who headed back to our house. And like most toddler horror stories go, he said "I merely looked away for a second and she was gone!".
Horror images started to form in my head and I had to take a deep breath before turning to look at Ya-Ya. I wanted to ask her to standby at the corridor with a phone. I was going to search for En via the stairs and Gong Gong would conduct his search via the elevator. Before I could even vocalise my hunting strategy, the elevator came back up to our floor since Gong Gong had pressed both the up/down buttons. Viola! The elevator door open and princess En walked out quietly, hugging her toddler's Bible close to her chest. Thank God!
She didn't cry. Neither was she freaked out by this incident. Gong Gong and I gave her a big hug to reassure the brave little one. But knowing how timid she'd always been, I thank God no one else had been using the elevator, hence the door did not open on any other floors. As for the brief moment En spent alone in the elevator, none of us will ever find out how she reacted or felt since she's not talking yet. One thing for sure, she must have been praying to God and was comforted by Him. For she walked into the elevator carrying the Bible but emerge hugging it. Praise God!
Here's to share with you a pix of her beloved Bible which comes with a little handle for her to lug around.

Well, we've all been reminded once again that where toddlers are concerned, NEVER take your eyes off them, EVEN if its only for A SECOND. :)
"For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways." - Psalm 91:11 NKJV
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Date with Di
So we had ice cream & smoothies at Gelare while sharing our job frustrations (well, motherhood is a considerably tough job, you know!), discuss possible solutions to the issues we face and realign our visions for our family's future. I strongly believe communication is the key to any relationship. And I'm not talking about any normal conversation. That's just exchanging of words. I'm referring to spending quality time together, listening to each other and sharing. Its nearly impossible for us to do that while the munchkins are awake. Most parents would feel the same, I guess. Kids, toddlers in particular, simply have that magical power to totally transform parents into absolute strangers unless they're napping or in bed at night. Kekeke...
Well, I'm just glad we managed to "catch up" with one another this time. And I certainly look forward to more of such dates. :)
Friday, April 25, 2008
Speech
And although I'm quite OK with them not speaking or even calling me "mommy", I get really pissed off (forgive my language here but I seriously cannot help it) when others show their "concern" over this issue. Especially those "well meaning" neighbours who react in "great horror" as if I said my girls are dumb, or bragged endlessly about their grandchildren who started addressing them "po po" at 14 months. There are times when you feel like replying "Oh, your grandson started talking at 14 months? Does that make him a lawyer?" when I knew exactly the grandson she's referring to is that 16 month old brat yelling at her. But I've decided not to lower myself to their level cos there are so many issues we could argue about. And there are also nosy parkers who won't stop giving uninvited "tips" on how to make the munchkins talk or potty train them. You can imagine how many times I had to hold back remarks like "I can afford disposable diapers, you know? Not just those cheap diapers. We use MamyPoko Pull Up Pants!" @#$%^&*!!!
Okie, let's ignore those EQ-deficient folks and look at the brighter side. I must give my munchkins credit for having more or less achieved all the necessary milestones at 18 months. Their first tooth emerges at the 5th month, they master the act of rolling over at 4 months (En) & 4.5 months (Xuan), sit steadily without support when they turn 6 months, stand without support at 10 months (Xuan) and 11 months (En), followed by their first steps at 11 months (Xuan) and 12.5 months (En). Thereafter, they proceed to run, sorts simple objects by shapes, pick up tiny objects with thumb and index finger, negotiate the stairs, imitates demonstrations, scribbles, stack blocks, etc. Of late, they've also started to self feed using a spoon and even manage to take off an article of clothing (shorts or sleeveless tops).
So, look! So what if they can't talk like the 16 month old brat? At least I can preserve my sanity for a few more months till they start raining questions beginning with "Why, What, Who, When, Where and How" on me. Kekeke...
Terrible Twos?
We get caught in so many NO WIN situation daily when the munchkins insist on being independent at performing tasks which they aren't adequately equipped with the skills to do it yet. Its a terrible vicious cycle which goes something like this:
- They want to play the 3-D shapes sorter.
- I quietly watch them do it, knowing they lack the skills to complete sorting all the shapes.
- They get frustrated at their failure to perform, they start to whine.
- I try to comfort them and offer my help.
- They get upset because I tried to help, so they begin to wail.
- I take a step back and watch again, offering only verbal instructions.
- They recognise their inadequacy and rage at me for not helping them.
- I try to demonstrate how the shapes should be realigned in order to slip it into the box.
- They kick and scream as if I had "desecrated' the pieces of shapes.
- I retreat to a corner, take a deep breathe and pray if necessary.
- They continue to wail.
- We take a 2-4 minutes time out.
- Things return to normal and they move on to another toy.
- The whole cycle starts again...
If this is just a prelude to the "terrible twos" stage, God help me! I cannot imagine being in the actual phase. Otherwise, I pray I'll become amnesic, just like the munchkins.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Allergic Rhinitis
Then, my heart sank as deep as the Titanic when the wordings "Allergic Rhinitis" (AR in short) appeared on her prescribed medication. These may seemed like any normal medical terms but to me, this is a term which had been labelled on my medical records since 1993. In fact, I was once condemned to the "chronic" family and was in specialist care for 6 years. To be told my munchkins (who bears no physical resemblance to me) and I have something as such in common is nothing to rejoice about.
So is it time to stop living in denial and face the music? They are only 18 months old and they have a long way ahead of them. I will not cease to work on improving their health and respiratory system, so they won't follow in my footsteps. Had my parents been more educated about AR when I was younger, my quality of life would have been a lot better. Am I blaming my parents now? NO. They did their best, as I would for my kids. So out I went to get bottles of Eucalyptus concentrate for the air revitalisor which I had newly relocated to their bedroom. Organic cold care chest rub is also on standby every night now. I will not hesitate to take any extra care to prevent the munchkins from being part of the AR herd.
On a separate note, I'm still thankful to God that there are things I could do in this case, and having come this far with my AR condition, I knew exactly what to do with my munchkins'. Praise the Lord they are not suffering from something which I had totally no knowledge about. And I still believe in miracles. After all, they are only 1.5 years old. There is hope for complete healing anytime. Never limit what God can do.
Extract from song "When You Believe" (chorus) :
There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who know what miracle you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Birthday
Given a choice, I'd love to have dinner at cozy restaurants (without the kids), prep gifts and surprises for him on his birthday. I won't say its impossible to do so, but I (or rather we) wouldn't want to stress any babysitters, especially when it comes to the munchkins' bedtime. Its a little bit tricky to put them to bed if you don't know their bedtime preference. Hence, we rather stick to the safer options like what we had.
Nevertheless, I had always remind myself not to put the kids' needs above Di. Cos the day will come when the munchkins will marry the man of their dream (I'm "far sighted", aren't I? Hee...) and I may get stuck with a "stranger" if I don't get my priorities right now. Its a challenge, I must admit, and I'm still working on it. But I'm sure we'll be able to get things right in time to come. Perhaps next year, Di. Or maybe my birthday at the end of this year? Kekeke...
Friday, April 11, 2008
Running on Empty
Patience. A very simple 8-letter word. One which many of us are familiar with because God had extend His to us so very often. Why is it so challenging to do the same to others? A very profound question which I couldn't answer (as yet).
For now, the interim solution to this hardware failure episode is application of a new programme which requires loading Psalms 103 from the good old system known as the "Bible". Perhaps executing verse 8-9 thrice a day may do the job until a permanent solution is established?
"The Lord is merciful and gracious,
Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy.
He will not always strive with us,
Nor will He keep His anger forever" - Psalms 103:8-9
In addition, musical therapy (practising on the guitar) is expected to help as well. Therefore, so long! Gotta go tune that guitar first... Now where did I place the tuner? And where are my scores? @#$%^&!!!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Zoo
Well, we left our home at 9:30am and spent about 4 hours in the zoo, including lunch. It was more fun to be there this time because the munchkins can better appreciate the animals and the surroundings. Despite the heat, Xuan is ever so thrill to spot an animal. En, on the other hand, is her usual oh-so-calm and composed, you wonder if she actually notice the animals. Its only when she let out that soft yet firm acknowledgement "um" that we knew she's aware of what all the excitement is about. Ha!
Both kiddos knocked out by 1:30pm just 5 minutes after we embarked on our return journey. They never fail to amaze me how fast they could go into "sleep mode" when we're on outings. Well, I'm contemplating becoming a member of "Friends of the Zoo"... What do you think?