The Skeezites

“I’ll make sure my kids never knew fear, except the fear of the Lord”. I said that to myself, holding my newborn twins 2 years ago. I’m not going to instill fear in their tiny little hearts & minds like my parents did (unconsciously) when I was young. The twins shall not fear creepy insects (eg. roaches which I absolutely detest more than fear), darkness, lightning, “ghosts”, etc.

Months passed by and the twins grew, fearless indeed. Then at some point, they began to start running away from creepy little things like lizards and bugs. I read that their imagination gets wilder as they enter toddlerhood, so we try our best to assure them those insects are harmless. As time passes, however, when the munchkins get out of hand at times, family members (myself included) unconsciously start to insinuate some form of fear in the little ones. For example, hinting that lizards are hiding in some corners of the storage room when they insist on entering. How ironical!!! I could finally understand where my parents (or every parent) were coming from when they had to confront an innocent toddler while at their wits end. And this truth finally dawned on me a few nights ago.

Alright, some background information first. What happened was the munchkins were taking advantage of Ya-Ya since her return to Singapore. Both would take turns to want to have milk feed in the middle of the night (they slept through when I take charge) and after following her to kitchen to get their milk prepared, they would insist on having their milk on the sofa, and thereafter, refuse to return to their bedroom. Poor Ya-Ya had to camp in the living hall with no room for her on the sofa!

To prevent similar episodes from occurring again, while watching the Barbie Mariposa DVD with the munchkins one evening, I lied by bringing the movie to “life”. I told the munchkins very sternly that they are not allowed to leave their bedroom at night and camp out in the hall because the Skeezites (some form of evil flying bugs which feed on butterfly fairies like Mariposa) would be waiting for them in the dark. If they should request for milk, they would have to consume the milk in their bedroom. And I went on to illustrate (as per the movie) how the Skeezites were too huge to enter small spaces (eg. their bedroom) and were afraid of bright lights.

True enough, the same night, both girls were awake at 2am. En asked to leave the bedroom while Xuan asked for milk. I walked into their room and reminded them of the Skeezites. Having reached an agreement that everyone will stay in the kitchen where lights will be on while I prepare the milk, we headed for the kitchen. For once, I managed to have the munchkins seated on the floor, waiting patiently. The moment I was done, the entire platoon marched back to the bedroom without a fuss. And the best part was, both of them knocked out as soon as they finished their milk.

While I was quite glad things ended on a happy note and they slept through the following nights, I was extremely guilty when Xuan (watching the same DVD, seated on my sister’s lap) said the word “scared” while pointing to the Skeezites yesterday. Did I do wrong? Should I have adopted another approach? I don’t know, seriously… But I think I will tell them the truth in another year or two. They probably know the truth by then but you know what, I’d rather confess. Sorry, girls…

Future to See

I've been too busy the few days, trying to adapt to my new found “freedom”. After slogging for a good 16 days straight with two sick, cranky toddlers, a frustrated husband and managing chores without a maid, my tensed muscles were finally able to relax.

To those who had been praying for the munchkins since their first day in playgroup, thank you very much! En & Xuan are healthy, happy and adjusting well to with their “academic” life. I’m so encouraged, perhaps because it makes me feel the decision to stay at home to care for them for the past 27 months had finally paid off. Watching them put on their shoes every evening when I fetch them from school is a delightful sight. I get even more excited when I hear new words from their mouth. It’s hard to believe they are picking up so much knowledge within a short span of time.

At the same time, I’m also thrilled to see the other parts of my life fall in place. If you recall my plans to go for a career switch, I've submitted my application for a 3 year full time course which will commence in April. Though I have yet to pass the interview by the sponsoring institution, I’m quite certain I will make it through. In fact, I've just been called up for a one-day attachment/assessment in the coming week! Gosh, I’m beginning to find the excitement a little overwhelming by now!

While my head is in a whirl, my mind is pretty clear and I pray I will be able to balance family & work/school life beautifully when the plans actually materialised. Life will become more challenging than it is now. I fear for myself (and my family) at times when I think about the years ahead. But I know the best solution (which is also the only solution) is to pray, pray and pray.

If I ever complain about anything here later on when things doesn’t worked out the way I wanted them to, please be patient with me, my friend. And if you can, gently remind me the old hymn that goes “I don’t know what holds tomorrow. But I know who holds my hand…”

"Fret not about anything, but in everything, by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
- Philippians 4:6-7 (NKJV)

Back to School

Its the first day of school for the brand new year. En & Xuan went back to playgroup today. Finally, a well deserved break awaits us, right? Wrong!!! Di and I spent the entire morning packing up the Christmas tree and spring cleaning the house. What to do? My OCD over cleanliness at work again...

Fortunately, the girls were not as cranky as we expected them to when they started school this morning. There were still tears at the gate but I guess the other freshies (the kiddos who started PG today) kind of "out last" them in terms of cry duration, so the munchkins "resigned to fate" and settled for breakfast instead.

As of now, we're still counting down. It will be 3 more days before Ya-Ya's return. I hope my sanity stays in place till then...