Do Not Worry

My soul was downcast for the past few days, a reflection of the gloomy, rainy weather. There was little sunlight and we were "trapped" at home. No outings to the malls, no walks to the parks, and even had to shut the main door as the strong wind kept the girls' hands/feet freezing cold. I began a series of "snacking" since there isn't much to do. Then all of a sudden, I realised my binging could be a sign of stress. But then... stress over what??? There's NOTHING to stress about in my life... No work stress, no relationship stress, happy family, great kids, good maid, etc... Errr... Well, let's face it. Even if there isn't a major stress factor in life, we still fret over little stuff like babies not adjusting well to new formula, complexion getting worse, gaining that 1kg, what lies ahead, blah, blah, blah and the list goes on...

In any case, I realised the NOTHING which I'm "stressed" about is a actually SOMETHING, and that itself is a WORRY. Sounds perplexing? You see, the dictionary define worry as follows:

• to torment oneself with or suffer from disturbing thoughts; fret;
• to feel uneasy or concerned about something; be troubled.

Well, I do suffer from disturbing thoughts, or so I thought. These disturbing thoughts come and go, causing me to hover between anger and remorse. Even if I managed to survive this round, it'll only stay dormant for a while, only to resurface again later on. Its like a "ghost" lingering outside my door...

I reckon this is a "spiritual" issue since a "ghost" is involved, or you may deem it a psychological one if that sounds more acceptable. Who shall I turn to for help? Send out a prayer request to my kakis via SMS? Call a pastor? Or shall I call the SAMH (Singapore Association for Mental Health) helpline? If my pea brain doesn't fail me, the helpline number should be 1800-2837019... Errr... Just kidding. Kekeke... The primitive way works best, I decided. I go back to my favourite scripture in my sweet Precious Moments NKJV Bible, turning to Matthew 6:25-34 with a bold heading "Do Not Worry". I could feel my muscles loosening up as I read. Its indeed very comforting to know that I have absolutely nothing to worry about as I go through the passage. My favourite verses in the entire passage is 28-30. I love the way King Solomon is said to be dressed nothing compared to lilies of the field. Kekeke... My spirit is always lifted whenever I read this portion over and over again. Oh yes I do, O me of little faith...

"So King Solomon surpassed all the kings of the earth in riches and wisdom" - 1 Kings 10:23 NKJV

"So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin;
and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?" - Mathew 6:28-30 NKJV