Di received THE letter yesterday. Yes, he got his promotion finally! Its the recognition he longed for and more importantly, the increment we looked forward to. The $$$ means a lot more to us now that we are single income and has 2 more mouths to feed (3, in fact, including our foreign domestic worker - FDW). We thank God for answering our prayers.
However, while Di's overwhelmed with joy, I'm suddenly overwhelmed with a sense of loss... While my other pals are out there working, developing their careers and contributing to their families, I feel so small staying at home looking after a pair of high speed crawlers. I know this topic had been debated numerous times by the general population. And yes, I know, I know, I know... My situation is unique; I should count my blessings; its not my fault that I have to stay at home; my job of nurturing my twins is more important than a career; I will return to the work force some day; God has special plans for me; blah, blah, blah... I KNOW! But it doesn't help at times when the feeling of being "under-utilised" sets in.
Nevertheless, God has His own ways of comforting me. En suddenly murmured "mom mom" at me earlier today while I was having my lunch. Gong Gong (my dad) was here and he's delighted to hear her speak for the first time. Well, she's either calling me or referring to my lunch ("mom mom" is commonly used for the word "food" in baby talk). And in this case, I'd like to think she's calling me. That makes me feel much better. A proud stay-at-home-mother, in fact. Guess that's the greatest reward one can expect from going full time at home. Afterall, I was there to witness their first smile, first roll over, first sit up, first bus ride, first haircut, first xxxx... What more can I ask for? I can earn millions but my girls will never be newborn again.
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Maybe you can try freelancing? There are quite alot of jobs that you can try working from home... We can help you look out too, if you can name your area of interests... hehe
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