Yes, En was indeed calling me when she said "mom mom". She did again when I walked pass her cot last evening. When my neighbour/pals came by last night, they witness En crawling towards me murmuring "mom mom..." My heart melted at that instance.
Told Di about it this morning and he was jealous. He looked at En and said "Call me. You can call me mom too."
Hahaha... *Evil Grin*
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Careers vs Rewards
Di received THE letter yesterday. Yes, he got his promotion finally! Its the recognition he longed for and more importantly, the increment we looked forward to. The $$$ means a lot more to us now that we are single income and has 2 more mouths to feed (3, in fact, including our foreign domestic worker - FDW). We thank God for answering our prayers.
However, while Di's overwhelmed with joy, I'm suddenly overwhelmed with a sense of loss... While my other pals are out there working, developing their careers and contributing to their families, I feel so small staying at home looking after a pair of high speed crawlers. I know this topic had been debated numerous times by the general population. And yes, I know, I know, I know... My situation is unique; I should count my blessings; its not my fault that I have to stay at home; my job of nurturing my twins is more important than a career; I will return to the work force some day; God has special plans for me; blah, blah, blah... I KNOW! But it doesn't help at times when the feeling of being "under-utilised" sets in.
Nevertheless, God has His own ways of comforting me. En suddenly murmured "mom mom" at me earlier today while I was having my lunch. Gong Gong (my dad) was here and he's delighted to hear her speak for the first time. Well, she's either calling me or referring to my lunch ("mom mom" is commonly used for the word "food" in baby talk). And in this case, I'd like to think she's calling me. That makes me feel much better. A proud stay-at-home-mother, in fact. Guess that's the greatest reward one can expect from going full time at home. Afterall, I was there to witness their first smile, first roll over, first sit up, first bus ride, first haircut, first xxxx... What more can I ask for? I can earn millions but my girls will never be newborn again.
However, while Di's overwhelmed with joy, I'm suddenly overwhelmed with a sense of loss... While my other pals are out there working, developing their careers and contributing to their families, I feel so small staying at home looking after a pair of high speed crawlers. I know this topic had been debated numerous times by the general population. And yes, I know, I know, I know... My situation is unique; I should count my blessings; its not my fault that I have to stay at home; my job of nurturing my twins is more important than a career; I will return to the work force some day; God has special plans for me; blah, blah, blah... I KNOW! But it doesn't help at times when the feeling of being "under-utilised" sets in.
Nevertheless, God has His own ways of comforting me. En suddenly murmured "mom mom" at me earlier today while I was having my lunch. Gong Gong (my dad) was here and he's delighted to hear her speak for the first time. Well, she's either calling me or referring to my lunch ("mom mom" is commonly used for the word "food" in baby talk). And in this case, I'd like to think she's calling me. That makes me feel much better. A proud stay-at-home-mother, in fact. Guess that's the greatest reward one can expect from going full time at home. Afterall, I was there to witness their first smile, first roll over, first sit up, first bus ride, first haircut, first xxxx... What more can I ask for? I can earn millions but my girls will never be newborn again.
Preface & Introduction
When we found we were pregnant in Feb 2006, hubby (hereinafter refer to as "Di") was first to suggest starting a blog (which he eventually did) as a diary for our parenthood journey. I didn't bother because I'm not sure if I can persevere in writing (rather typing) one. So why bother to start one now? Hmmm... Because I recently completed a scrap book documenting my motherhood journey from Feb 06 - Apr 07 and we could recall so many fond memories going through the book. Besides, Di stopped updating his blog due to time/energy constraints, and its a lot more tedious to cut/paste photos, design layout, write my thoughts, etc. in the scrap book. I finally decided on the easier way out - BLOG. Hence, my diary to document our (or rather, my) parenthood journey begins here.
Being first time parents to a pair of twins is an amazing experience for us. Without any family history, we conceived the twins unexpectedly, yet with much anticipation and joy. They're indeed treasures from the Lord. Now that they've come this far - from newborns to high speed crawlers, we can't helped but feel proud of ourselves for having such high levels of endurance in caring for them. On the other hand, I really salute those who have triplets or multiples, as well as parents with more than 2 children. These young innocent creatures can easily turn 2 otherwise organised, competent parents into incoherent, exhausted and frustrating strangers.
Now that we've signed up for a "tour package" which leads to a lifelong journey of learning and growing (with the kids), I ask God for His daily provisions and watch over us as we take things one step at a time. Yes, we particularly need lots of patience and grace, just as our heavenly Father had been graciously putting up with us. ^.^
What do I think of PARENTHOOD? ... Its A Journey of Faith.
"... "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him."
But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. ..." - 1 Corinthians 2:9-10 (NKJV)
Being first time parents to a pair of twins is an amazing experience for us. Without any family history, we conceived the twins unexpectedly, yet with much anticipation and joy. They're indeed treasures from the Lord. Now that they've come this far - from newborns to high speed crawlers, we can't helped but feel proud of ourselves for having such high levels of endurance in caring for them. On the other hand, I really salute those who have triplets or multiples, as well as parents with more than 2 children. These young innocent creatures can easily turn 2 otherwise organised, competent parents into incoherent, exhausted and frustrating strangers.
Now that we've signed up for a "tour package" which leads to a lifelong journey of learning and growing (with the kids), I ask God for His daily provisions and watch over us as we take things one step at a time. Yes, we particularly need lots of patience and grace, just as our heavenly Father had been graciously putting up with us. ^.^
What do I think of PARENTHOOD? ... Its A Journey of Faith.
"... "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him."
But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. ..." - 1 Corinthians 2:9-10 (NKJV)
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